I am Expectant

Posted by Jen Overly on Oct 1, 2010 in Daily Bread | 4 comments

I am expectant. I am NOT expecting (put down the phone, mom.) Our house is for sale, and when your house is for sale, strangers come and look at it when you are not around and open the drawers, and look in the closets, and peek in the fridge. So everything must be in order. Shoes lined up, cans turned so the labels are out, towels hung properly in a bathroom that is scrubbed and glimmering. It takes a lot of preparation and hard work to be ready. But every morning that I leave my house, I expect to be called by my agent and told that I need to come to pick up the dog because someone would like to take a look. I wait, expectantly.

That level of expectation, however, is so difficult to maintain. There are mornings I semi-hope she doesn’t call, because I just didn’t have time to make sure the boys washed all their toothpaste spit down the sink in their bathroom. I am not ready. I am hoping that maybe I have one more day to pull it all together.

Have you ever waited expectantly on the Lord? You put your ducks in a row, crossed the “t” and dotted the “i” and turned the cans so the labels were facing out, and then waited. Expectantly. Your energies are high, your enthusiasm is great, and your motivation is astounding. And you wait. Expectantly. And while you wait one of your ‘t’s’ becomes uncrossed and you hurry to cross it again, only to wait a little longer. Then the next time that “t” becomes uncrossed maybe it takes you a little longer to get around to crossing it and then there is a slow slide down into irritability because you were ready, really ready, and then things came undone, and now you aren’t ready and you don’t have the motivation to get there anymore.

I am having trouble figuring out just how to keep my standard high, my level of expectation elevated, and my motivation purring.

Maybe the key is in the verse above: in the morning. Lift these things to the Lord daily and then be expectant. Start your day placing your requests at His feet and then wait in expectation, because His timing is perfect, His plan is flawless, His “t’s” are crossed, and His “i’s” are dotted and we get a grand view of how He chooses to work it all out for the good of those who love Him.