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Half-hearted and Smacked in the Face.
A few months back, Mike sat down with the Fuel students interested in doing worship on Sunday nights. I went into the meeting thinking he was just trying to get a schedule figured out and we were just there to get more organized, and I just didn’t really think too much of it. But he shared with us that he felt compelled to buckle down on worship, not in an organizational way, but in a spiritual way. He said that the second you get on that stage, you become a leader. And that just really hit me hard. Because if I’m leading, that means they’re following. Which means I needed a bit of a clean-up.
Prior to this meeting, and that smack in the face, worship at Fuel was just..whatever to me. My mindset was “Alright, let’s just pick like two songs we know and wing it.” Clearly, I really needed to get some things straight. I took a little break from leading worship because I just needed to feel what worshipping was really like. What standing in the crowd felt like. I spent a lot of this time praying that I could have a heart of worship, and be devout up there. God showed me that I had to lose myself before I entered the throne room. And when I really got a hold of what that felt like, worship became worship. My heart was made right, and God gets all the glory for that.
Christy, thankyou for the reminder about worship. There are days I go through the motions and “wing it” and there are days that I am engaged and prepare to go before the throne. Worship on the days I prepare is more about giving God His do honor and respect. then I what I can get out of it I love those days I have prepared.
I have to tell you I liked your bio. But you are so much more then those few lines. Having worshiped with you for 10 of those 17 years I have enjoyed watching you grow and become a valued child of Christ. I look forward to seeing what the future holds for you.
Thanks for your honesty, Christi. That is a huge life lesson you learned! I have had to learn it over and over and over…life is just not about me. I do praise God for His love and commitment towards you and His continuing work in your life!
happy to have you as a step, half, whatever daughter…
thanks for sharing these thoughts Miss Christi.
blessings,
alan
Christi,
Well spoken and great verse out of John. Thanks for sharing.
christi,
a genuine change of heart that is born of GOD’s spirit is so rare, yet so obvious. and the desire to learn from Him and be changed by Him is precious. thanks for being so candid about how you sought GOD’s teaching, and how He taught you. i am honored to serve with you because you desire to please GOD. thanks for the humble reminders about how to worship.
cheri
You are discovering the difference between being a Worship Leader and a Lead Worshiper. I love your heart, and your desire to seek His purpose and his k’vod as you heed His calling on your life – even when it smacks you in the face.
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- Mummy
Christi – thank you so much for sharing your very personal lesson. Thank you too for listening to Him, and obeying Him in so many ways that encourages others to do the same – to stop and think. We will all be blessed by you!
Love, Janey