Thought

I sure would like an attitude of peace. I would rather not be anxious. In the hurriedness of this world, with all its conflicting demands and limited time to meet them, to have the peace of God is very appealing. I have been there before it seems like the world and its associated cares seems to frequently intrude. Still, there is something that happens in my heart when I earnestly pray.

Sometimes, I think it would be better if I could be a farmer Looking at it as a non-farmer, it ought to be clear to a farmer that there are a certain things that he can do (plant, weed, cultivate, fertilize, harvest) and certain things that he can’t (bring rain, avoid droughts, floods, frost, tornadoes, heat, late frosts, etc. ) It seems like it would be clear to a farmer that his outcome is dependent God’s goodness. He would have to trust in God – even if he just calls it nature (or what the Calvinist’s would say God’s general grace).

As a non-farmer, I sometimes find myself confused. That is one of the big areas where I loose my focus. I try to take control and responsibility for things that I cannot control. I seem to prefer certainty (or the appearance of certainty) about temporal things when no certainty really exists. I think that is often where anxiety comes from. I struggle sometimes to truly recognize that my ability to earn a living, my health, the well-being of my family, and many, many other things are really dependent on God’s goodness and His provision rather than something that I can muster. To depend on God… is it a "let go and let God"? Does that mean that I shouldn’t work diligently, care for my health, or my family? No. But it does mean that I ought to do my part in all of these areas (including employment) and be able to rest in the fact that God will accomplish His purposes. Jesus lived his life in a balance between what He was to do and what the Father was to do. He never seemed hurried. Why do I? After all, I cannot count the hairs on my head but God already has. Consider His great love for us. Then again, farmers, or fishermen, or store owners probably have the same struggle.

Are there areas where you feel yourself compelled to strive beyond what you can do? To be anxious? Are you willing to just do your part and depend on God?