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What does God want to save me from?
God longs to deliver us from all enemies, even the small things, to satisfy us fully with Himself.
King David wrote Psalm 18 in celebration of God defeating all of his enemies and rescuing him from Saul. I don’t know about you, but I’ve never had a large army or the king of an entire country trying to kill me.
When I think of my enemies, I think of the temptations the world throws at me to distract me from God. I particularly struggle with desiring things that I feel entitled to such as personal space, personal time, or loads and loads of things.
Last August, Jonathan and I started an intentional community. We live in a 3 bedroom apartment with 3 other people, 2 cats, and a dog, and we share almost everything. Our desire behind this community is ultimately that we would die to ourselves and Christ would reign supreme in areas of our lives that we hadn’t yet surrendered. The first few months of our new living situation showed me how much I was attached to worldly things—whether it be my personal space, the food in the pantry that kept disappearing before I got to eat it, or how we decorated. But, as I continually ran to my Rock and my Fortress through this time, I realized that Christ is my hope and my home and every earthly thing is worthless compared to the surpassing greatness of drawing closer to Jesus. Little by little, losing my personal space, personal time, or favorite snacks became a point of worship rather than frustration, and the fellowship I had with our community grew to the point where Jonathan and I never want to live alone again. Sure, there are sacrifices, but the beauty and freedom that comes from giving up every kind of worldly entitlement or expectation far outweighs what we gave up.
So, to bring it back around, God is my Strength, my Rock, my Fortress, my Deliverer, my Refuge, my Shield, my Salvation, my Stronghold. Not only has He rescued me from death, but He has rescued me from the more subtle enemies of this world that pull me from worship and cause me to settle for a mediocre Christian life. Yes, He is worthy to be praised!!!
Sarah, thanks so much for being transparent and sharing your heart. I really appreciate your openness.
You and Jonathan will certainly be missed. 
We’re praying for you!!!
Wow, I wish you guys were staying here longer so we could know you better.
John 21:19: “Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, “Follow me!”
We’re all called to different deaths.
I might say about what God has called you to do, “Oh I could never be like Jonathan and Sarah.” But what death has Jesus called me to. If I follow Him, he’ll lead me to it.
I have to admit, I am stuck one the fact that God is in the mildew. I always thought that I was too small and God was too big for me to bother him with things such as mildew, or ice cream, where to eat, etc. The fact is though, those little things make talking to God even easier. It is a lot better for me to share through prayer everything. That way, the more adn more I talk with him, the closer I feel to him. I am able now to realize the stubbling blocks that are put in my way to keep me from that relationship. My newest revalation happened just two days ago. It is a pratice for me to read every night before I go to bed. I find it calming and I am better able to fall asleep. As I went for my book the other night, I had to move my bible. It was then it hit me. If I am reading every night, why am I not reading his word? It is the little things. The more we talk to God, the more he talks to us, even if we are scrubbing the toilet.
Sarah,
Thank you for sharing your heart on what God has challenged and taught you in the past year. It has been so great to have you and Jonathan apart of our Community Group. You have brought so much knowledge, heart, and inspiration to our group and you both will be missed sooooo much! Love you!